Size doesn't matter...the effect does

Ain't it funny how the smallest things can sometimes make a bigger difference than you could ever expect? Probably everyone of us have had one of those days when we feel like nothing is going right: your bike gets stolen, you drop your phone in a toilet bowl, you find out that your boyfriend is cheating on you... You feel like the whole world is against you. Well...I had that day, but that's not the point. The point is what happened then...what made a difference. After another painfully boring class I had to use a restroom. While I was dealing there with my business my eye caught something that made my day...naah, nothing dirty you would think. It was a short simple sentence written on the door of the cabin: "You Are Beautiful". It might seem like so what. That's the point: amazing how something like that can make that little click in us and we feel totally different after. Like a remote and TV. I was staring at it and it made me smile and think of what is actually important in our lives and what is not...

Professor Griffin, you were right...we are all creative...hmhmm

This little thing has been going on in my mind for the whole day. Highlight of my day?...not really. Since I love hip hop, rap, r&b and all kind of that stuff, I constantly check some related pages for some new music, videos, news. And what I found today in my opinion was interesting enough to make a topic of for this blog. The news was about rapper Nelly and his 2003 video of ''Tip Drill'', and how he defends it. Yes...thats right defends because after seeing this video it does not have to be explained why he's doing it. Nelly has recently reflected on his controversial, adult-themed "Tip Drill" music video, stating that it showcased another side of his creativity. Yeah...I would say swiping the credit card between girl's butt cheeks is a brilliant idea ( you have to see the video in order to follow me). So...here is his argument: "I'm not bound by anything in terms of my freedom to create, who says everything you create has to be accepted by everyone? If I only did one thing, one way then I wouldn't be an artist. Everything in the history of art and music wasn't accepted at first. Not to say what I did wasn't risqué, but it was needed at the time. All I did was entertain adult fans.''

So, yes...I kinda want to agree with him...I really like the idea of being free in creating. Creativity=freedom for me. And yes, you can not be loved and accepted by everyone. And we live in a free country where freedom of speech exists. But...there is also a but (as well as in this video :) ). From the perspective of a fan or of a consumer, from the perspective of a female consumer there were certain feelings and emotions I experienced watching the clip. We all know how the usual rap videos are...money, cars, women. And I am usually fine with them, but I felt offended by this one. I seriously did. And all these women in the video...they just made me sick. I can not really find a word how to call them...hoe?...bitch?...slut?...nope...that would be too boring...but anywayss...the main idea was actually CREATIVITY and how it can be interpreted...SKY IS THE LIMIT!!!

See the video here:

http://www.rapbasement.com/nelly/092210-rapper-nelly-defends-his-adult-themed-music-video-watch-here-click-now.html

What inspires me...

There are many things that inspire me in my everyday life. But what inspires me when it comes to my other passion: drawing? I love to draw, but there are specific things I draw. Namely I like to draw naked women. Weird huh? It comes so effortlessly. So, I have have been wondering why. Why sometimes I get those pictures in my mind that I feel I need to save them on the paper? Why naked women? It is a bit hard to explain that moment. It's like I sit in the class, listen to a boring lecture or just chill and watch TV and then suddenly I get that flash image of a woman act after which I don't even care what's going on around me. I just have to express that moment on the paper. Once I start with it I can't and I won't quit until I'm done with it. Sometimes it takes even a couple of hours, but I don't even notice how the time flies. I do not get hungry, I do not get sleepy...I do not really get anything. I hear or see nothing around me. It's like my body doesn't exist...only my ideas and urge to create. I enjoy every moment of it...and by the end I feel totally satisfied. Can I compare that feeling to sex...hahaa..yeah...probably...I really can. I would call it orgasm of creativity then. It happens a lot when I'm feeling blue. That's when the best ideas and flash images come to my mind.
Anyway...still...why women and why are they always naked? No...everything is fine with my sexual orientation...lol...I know that for sure. When I get that flash of a woman I never see her face...body is what matters. So, I don't have a muse, but people when they see my drawings usually ask if it's me on the pictures. They say that their features have something in common and that they remind them of me a bit. But I never try to draw myself, not intentionally at least. So, maybe I am my own muse...I inspire myself... :)