To be honest I feel my head is completely empty. No good ideas...like somebody blocked the way for thoughts...not just thoughts, because you know...there are always thoughts in our minds. But what kind of thoughts...quality is what matters. Or am I just lazy? Well...after starting the day at 5.30 AM with the morning work out then continuing with the school from 8 - 3.30PM and then busting my a$$ off at the practice...I am just happy to get to my tiny apartment and I don't even mind being lazy...really I don't seem to mind anything at all. It's just sometimes I feel like a squirrel in a run wheel: run run run grind grind grind seconds...minutes...hours...days go by. You can't even tell where the end of one and the beginning of another day is. They blend into one 120 hours long day. Yes, that's right 120h...5x24. Why 5x? Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday. I live from weekend to weekend. The rest of the week I am like a robot...a zombie. Same ishhh different day. Not even different day...I don't remember what I did on Monday or Wednesday, because it's the same anyway. So I have a specific mindset for that 5-days-long day...have my own game face to benefit the most from the situation. Unfortunately that mindset doesn't support my creative thinking in the amount I wish I did.
So...does that squirrel acknowledge why it runs in that wheel? Do I know why I'm doing that all? I do not know about the squirrel but surely know what's the purpose of my running. And as long as I know and understand that I will keep on running in my wheel...moreover I will make sure that the wheel will be oiled enough to keep on whirling...
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