My mum had me when she was 23...I am 23!!!!! Yeah, I don't know why but it hit me today...and it hit hard... I realized that, compared me to her. It feels kinda weird...funny...because I thought about it and tried to imagine myself in the situation of starting a family at the age of what I am now...and it just felt soooo so so strange and funny. I just can't picture myself in that kind of situation right now. I don't know what's wrong with me..maybe I am just not mature enough. Not only that...I can't see myself as a mother and a wife even in the near future...not like in the next 5 years. Is it wrong? Maybe...maybe not...
I have set specific goals right now for the future but family is not of them. I've always been independent, I hate to rely on somebody...wait for somebody. I like to move in my own speed, my own rhythm. And I think it's not easy to find somebody who would be able to keep up and not slow me down. That's why sometimes I rather do things by myself than ask for a help. So, that's why one of my goals is to achieve the level where I could be financially totally independent. A great education, finding a desirable job, working myself up - that will get me to that level. This is what is on my mind now. And...when that goal is achieved...I can think of the next important thing: family. So, said that comparing myself to mother when she was at my age doesn't feel so strange anymore. The times have changed, the society has changed. There is no right or wrong thing to do. It's more about what you want to do. ''We walk the same path, but got on different shoes. Live in the same building, but we got different views.''
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